When I was 23, I overestimate my ability to withstand the toxicity in arguing. I binge watched drama TV and then I became very toxic without even knowing I was also the toxic ones in the world. To get out of it, I focus my time in practicing coding. My life changed after 5-6 years of practice.
I need to remind myself my last minute is now. No more “do it later. haha”
By helping others with computer stuff, I start to feel the love again.
Before having the knowingness of “I can get through this”. When I encounter a problem in programming, I panic. But with enough practice, I have the confidence that I can solve this eventually, even I have no idea to solve things. The way I practice positivity is to write down positive aphorisms and make encouragement videos.
If I want others to help me, I must help myself first.
Self-help is being attacked with labels.
The easy way is to listen and to search mental health solution on the internet. I need to listen a few times if I don't understand how does it work and how should i rethink, the hard way I did was to to try the depression again.
When I realised I haven’t been truthfully personal to my audience, I rewrite my content.
When I realise how shitty over sugar drink is, I stopped consuming it.
When I declare to not hurt back anymore, because hurt back is the madness itself, inner peace starts to emerge.