Blame doesn't give myself bling bling happiness of friendship. But still struggling with those words in my mind when I’m angry.
Protection and Kindness happens when there’s a power of the situation in the form of presence of mutual friendship.
Being happy again takes break-ups to bad behaviours - yourself, near and dear and others.
Self-expression is my freedom. Self expression is music and art. Self expression is invention. Self expression is writing myself out so that i can see more clear.
When I give myself excuses for my misbehaviour, I get to stay stuck in life. I read the online self help material and I win my relationship back, my happiness back, my-dream-self back and also my future back.
When I was 23, I overestimate my ability to withstand the toxicity in arguing. I binge watched drama TV and then I became very toxic without even knowing I was also the toxic ones in the world. To get out of it, I focus my time in practicing coding. My life changed after 5-6 years of practice.
I need to remind myself my last minute is now. No more “do it later. haha”
By helping others with computer stuff, I start to feel the love again.
Before having the knowingness of “I can get through this”. When I encounter a problem in programming, I panic. But with enough practice, I have the confidence that I can solve this eventually, even I have no idea to solve things. The way I practice positivity is to write down positive aphorisms and make encouragement videos.
If I want others to help me, I must help myself first.